Safe in a Crazy World …

Finally, 4 May is approaching. After this day, I will embark on a free and easy journey hehe. Really tired of not having enough rest, not having time for myself, and also tired of things that cannot be improved and which I find unacceptable. Most impt of all, I am very relieved to get away from the horrible kiasu environment in uni! I guess I will put all these baggage down for the time being and go look for the real me. Nobody shall disturb me anymore. I don’t know if I would ever be able to free myself from extreme frustration and things that make me dull and grumpy, but at least I want to find the happy me, and summon enough strength to live by my own principles in this stereotypical society. I will make sure that I no longer have to repeatedly get hurled by inconsiderate remarks made on impulse, and I finally don’t have to struggle to teach people why every individual deserves respect. And I am definitely going to be heard, and not talking to walls. In other words, I am finally going to treat myself better. Sometimes I ask myself "why put up with all the nonsense and make my own life miserable?" Esp when my suffering is not for any constructive purposes. I am tired of giving chances and I guess 7 years is considered quite a substantial amount of tolerance. That is just about as far as I can go, before I SNAP! This is a real-life experiment on my tolerance, and I think my score is quite a feat. =D Maybe I will find my direction after a good rest. Wish me luck hee. ;P